Having a baby sure IS a scream. One minute she is all smiles playing peek-a-boo with you, the next minute she's shrieking like a banshee. Of course this sudden turn of events could get you panicky because neighbors might think you've hit her they'd dial 163. She couldn't be hungry because you fed her just 15 minutes ago. Perhaps some insect bit her... So you inspect your baby thoroughly only to discover it's just her wet diaper. And you better change that nappy now! Fast! Or she'll shriek even louder!
Kiss your long baths goodbye as well. Or doing crossword while in the toilet. Or as simple as combing your hair. Some days, my hair goes uncombed until afternoon. Perhaps this could be the reason why Jagger giggles at the sight of me. Mama looks like Goku again. If you have a baby, prepare for bad hair days...everyday! I used to be insomniac but ever since I got pregnant and had Jagger, I snored whenever I get the opportunity. I exclusively breastfeed her so it's me and me alone who could feed her. It's terribly exhausting especially when it's 3 AM and she's up for a feed. And just when you've settled back to sleep, Jagger decides she wanted a chat with mommy so she coos and gurgles at her zombie mommy. If mommy doesn't coo and gurgle back, she'd cry. Or scream. Whichever works.
Jagger doesn't have a nanny so if you plan to get one, a baby won't be so much of a scream perhaps. Just get somebody who is a relative and observe if your baby is comfortable with her. Trust me there will be times when you've become so exhausted you'd think of throwing baby out :D So to prevent evil ideas such as that, a nanny would be helpful. And of course we all wanted to take care of ourselves. Pregnancy was no walk in the park while post pregnancy is a period of depression (this is so true), dry skin and stretch marks!
So remember it's not only you. Mommies all over the world are feeling what you're feeling. To save myself (i.e. to understand the emotions I've been feeling) from postpartum depression, I visit forums of new mothers. It is important to talk with other moms because their tips can help you survive every scream that comes with having a baby. The first three months that I had Jagger, I felt alone. I felt nobody could understand what I was going through. Through online forums, I was able to cope with the physical and emotional pressure that first time mommies go through.
Perhaps in the next posts, I will be sharing what you need for your first baby. Having a baby shouldn't be a scream to our pockets as well.